Just for you - A sonnet

I live on this earth,

Just for you,

And waiting here with a berth,

Just for you,

All the world hath changed,

But I only for thou,

hath not still changed,

in this worldly zoo,

I pray to him,

Just for you,

And want you to come with a brim,

And a smile too,

As I live on this earth,

Just for you...

Verse for you

Sweet as Blossom that hangs on the bough,

Pure as fragrance that lingers even now,

Thy memory sweet like nectar dew,

Shall never let me bid thee adieu...

If it were not for you.

I would have been an athiest,

If it were not for you.

Rather than being considerate I would have been a beast,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't have known pain,

If it were not for you.,

There was no way I could have stayed sane,

If it were not for you.

Words would have been just words,

Devoid of any meaning or sense,

And writing a poem would have been a penance,

If it were not for you.

My glass wouldn't have been half full,

My life would have remained in a lull,

I wouldn't have known passion and compassion,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't wake up siling,

Wouldn't on hopes I would've been sailing,

Wouldn't have much to dream about,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't be up writing this piece when all are fast asleep,

Wouldn't have felt pain of being bereft of you,

Wouldn't have known what love is,

If it were not for you.

My Ephemeral feelings

The path is still dark,
Although the smog has cleared,
The night is still quiet,
Although its no more eerie,

My word is still surrounded by dark clouds,
Although there's no lightning and thunder now,
I can't still tell from an angel to a demon,
Although I can see my own feet clearly now.

I still can't see a moon in the sky,
Although now I find my way by light of firefly,
My nights are still lonely,
Though with your dreams now I comply.....

I want you

I want you, The one that you are in my dreams,,

Not the one that you seem to be now,

Don't spoil my memories of you gentle,

That love, that my heart's fire doth kindle,

I don't want the girl that I've realized u are,

I want that angel that I presumed u to be,

I don't want to be practical,

I don't want the grey in you,

I want you, the one that was always loving (to me),

I don't want the one that u are (or have become),

I don't want you to hold back,

No restraint on love or expression (of feelings) do i want..

If you cant be that angel that I loved,

Then I'm sorry to say, 

I might not love you as I loved your presumed self....

I just dont know how?

I Know u do it,

I just dont know how?

I know u make me complete,

I know u r da reason my heart beats....

I know u more than da most,

I know u r my heart's host,

I know u cn make me break any vow,

I just dont know how?

I know u enough not to trust u,

I know its better not to go near you,

Still every path i take leads me 2 u,

I just dont know how?

I saw u and knew there's a God,

u left me n i knew life z not fair,

U left me n took my heart in tow,

I just dont know how??

I thought i knew u n i knew myself 4 sure,

But uleft me n now came bak 2 even da score,

I ran 4m u bt u snatched my heart again,

I just dont know how???

Dillema

More often than not has life reverted,

lurching back and surging ahead,

Sometimes giving companionship but often leaving me deserted,

Fiddling with agonies hoping to get ahead.

It's not the absence of love that bothers so much,

As it's being in reach yet being unattainable,

Due to the feeling of doing injustice, 

to one or the other unwanted love of your lives,

Facing the scorn of the fate,

Travelling among pains makes me irate,

Watching every opportunity to turn as life's bait,

To turn all my efforts to live turn to waste.