If it were not for you.

I would have been an athiest,

If it were not for you.

Rather than being considerate I would have been a beast,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't have known pain,

If it were not for you.,

There was no way I could have stayed sane,

If it were not for you.

Words would have been just words,

Devoid of any meaning or sense,

And writing a poem would have been a penance,

If it were not for you.

My glass wouldn't have been half full,

My life would have remained in a lull,

I wouldn't have known passion and compassion,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't wake up siling,

Wouldn't on hopes I would've been sailing,

Wouldn't have much to dream about,

If it were not for you.

I wouldn't be up writing this piece when all are fast asleep,

Wouldn't have felt pain of being bereft of you,

Wouldn't have known what love is,

If it were not for you.

My Ephemeral feelings

The path is still dark,
Although the smog has cleared,
The night is still quiet,
Although its no more eerie,

My word is still surrounded by dark clouds,
Although there's no lightning and thunder now,
I can't still tell from an angel to a demon,
Although I can see my own feet clearly now.

I still can't see a moon in the sky,
Although now I find my way by light of firefly,
My nights are still lonely,
Though with your dreams now I comply.....

I want you

I want you, The one that you are in my dreams,,

Not the one that you seem to be now,

Don't spoil my memories of you gentle,

That love, that my heart's fire doth kindle,

I don't want the girl that I've realized u are,

I want that angel that I presumed u to be,

I don't want to be practical,

I don't want the grey in you,

I want you, the one that was always loving (to me),

I don't want the one that u are (or have become),

I don't want you to hold back,

No restraint on love or expression (of feelings) do i want..

If you cant be that angel that I loved,

Then I'm sorry to say, 

I might not love you as I loved your presumed self....

I just dont know how?

I Know u do it,

I just dont know how?

I know u make me complete,

I know u r da reason my heart beats....

I know u more than da most,

I know u r my heart's host,

I know u cn make me break any vow,

I just dont know how?

I know u enough not to trust u,

I know its better not to go near you,

Still every path i take leads me 2 u,

I just dont know how?

I saw u and knew there's a God,

u left me n i knew life z not fair,

U left me n took my heart in tow,

I just dont know how??

I thought i knew u n i knew myself 4 sure,

But uleft me n now came bak 2 even da score,

I ran 4m u bt u snatched my heart again,

I just dont know how???

Dillema

More often than not has life reverted,

lurching back and surging ahead,

Sometimes giving companionship but often leaving me deserted,

Fiddling with agonies hoping to get ahead.

It's not the absence of love that bothers so much,

As it's being in reach yet being unattainable,

Due to the feeling of doing injustice, 

to one or the other unwanted love of your lives,

Facing the scorn of the fate,

Travelling among pains makes me irate,

Watching every opportunity to turn as life's bait,

To turn all my efforts to live turn to waste.

Its Thou

'Tis not happiness that i do ask,

'Tis thy togetherness in which I want to bask,

Thou may think I forgot to remember you long back,

Should I tell thee how do I carry this flak.

Thou may think , for me; you shan't think 'bout,

Though 'tis thee endlessly in my thought,

Always forming a dreamy clout,

Thy art the desire of my heart sans a doubt.

I wish this ends...

I wish I could know how it works,

How a heart is strangled by emotions overworked,

How a hale & hearty succumbs to a disease cureless,

How can an intelligent mind let a heart make such a mess.

I wish I could know how it happens,

How does this attractions becomes a feeling so dense,

How a person can become so helpless by his own heart,

How does this triggers a start.

How can the wound of love become so incurable ,

How can the pain of parting become so unbearable,

How can God be so merciless,

How can a beloved doom a heart in such an abyss.

I wish I could know how it will end,

How will this stubborn love bend,

How can I get my wounds to tend,

How can I on love do not depend.

Thy Presence

   One thing that is both,

     Same & different at the same time,

     Is your scintillating presence,

     That always remains in my reminiscence.

     Same doth your affection appear,

     Never lessening despite my rude behavior,

     But very fulfillingly different I do feel,

     When with you in a hug I seal,

     Every time I am in an ordeal,

     By your warm presence you make it heal,

     & it never remains an ordeal,

     As it cannot stand your zeal,

     You and your presence,

     Overfills me with exuberance,

     You and your presence,

     Have become my life's essence.

For A Misunderstanding

So much for a misunderstanding,

My life's in a lurch for a misunderstanding,

Shattered are my dreams for a misunderstanding,

Gone are all hopes just for a misunderstanding,

Shackles of emotion bind my heart,

Pain of parting grinds my heart,

Piercing agonies grip my wounds,

Finished are my dreams just for moral grounds,

My Miss had an understanding,

That I did something which for her was offending,

Waited doth she for an encounter of emotion,

The wait had brought my tears' ocean.

Now when the misunderstanding is cleared,

Different situations have my heart pierced,

It can't & won't be the same now,

For my life has suffered the severest blow.